Dream

I returned from Santa Fe 2 weeks ago today. It was an intense yet amazing experience. I thought that I would stop blogging but after a dream I had last night I think I will keep going. I dreamt of a house that was a mixture between the house I grew up in and the house I currently own. I could see through a room into the roof. The room was in color but the roof/attic was in b+w. I was hesitant to go into the attic portion as it was like going into a different realm, but I did. I saw a man and he had some ailment (not visible but he told me so). He told me that I had the vision to see the way to fix it. He said there was a reason why the space was showing up as black and white. There was more to the dream but I cannot remember much. But I realized today that the "template" realm or realm of the ethers is by nature going to appear b+w. It will not always be that way, but because it is like a template of the physical world it makes sense it would not always have to be in such detail. Fewer colors means it is more straight to the point. Both b+w hold all the colors within them like a seed. An example would be like drawing plans for a house. You only need b+w to convey ideas. You can add color if you want, but it is not necessary in this stage.

I drive around and I see life and it is so weird but it is like I see both life unfolding and the template/pattern behind its unfolding. Like a formula in math. I see analogy all the time. Grooves of how things go -- patterns of nature. I feel like the 5th world or akashic world is truly dawning. The people who can see it are seeing it but some people cannot yet see it. Even thought they are experiencing it. Kind of like a baby that rides in the car and senses movement. At first it is awareness of just movement. Then it is the awareness of knowing that space (car) makes it able to move around. Then there is the actual knowledge of literally riding in a car. It takes time for things to appear to emerge even though they have been there all the while.

I think I have always seen this way but did not realize other people did not see it the same way. Maybe that is what my dream is about? Showing me that I have something I should run with. I do feel that way with vastu. I feel it is my dharma. Like I was born with these traits that would be conducive to designing and building houses. Gestalt. As if it was a plan all along. It is weird because it is not something I want to do. It is not something I think I have to do. It is just what is. A friend asked me why I felt I have to go to architecture school....I don't really. But there is an energetic pushing me that way, like it is the next step. I am not doing it for anyone or because I think I need it. It just is the next unfolding. Sometimes life is not about what we want or don't want. Life actually never is about what we want or don't want. We have the choice to go inward and let go of things that hold us back - fears and stubborn mindsets about how things should be - and just surrender to the flow. When we surrender is when things go as they should and we move forward with ease. It is crazy how it works. The friend assumed I could make the choice. I can see why. But if he can see who he is beyond personality and ego then he will see me and understand what I am saying and not judge. Until then it WILL look like I am making some decision. That being said, maybe I won't go to school. I am surrendering and going to sit back and see what happens...